Thursday, April 4, 2013

day 148: choices

"Choices" 10x8" Acrylic on acid free matte board $60

This was an emotional painting for me. Often i feel like a garage band artist. I feel like i am in between being alright, and good. I feel like i am lacking something, what that something is i haven't yet discovered. I feel strongly that anything can be interesting, if done correctly anything can be an epic painting. I just haven't found exactly how to accomplish  that.  There is such a fine line between painting something that is ok, to awesome, to overworked. I was one step from crying for probably 98% of this painting. 

Painting one a day is not easy, it is frustrating to push your creative juices every day. Some days i need a break, some days i need to push it. This is also a very fine line. When is it a day to push it? when is it a day to just take a break, take a step back. I am not sure. 

In the end i really like this painting. I am not even sure what he is thinking. I have a fear of heights. I have a fear of pushing my paintings one step further. I am working on releasing that fear. I am tired of painting scared. I am more worried about messing things up that i'm scared to make the move to make them epic. In the end i was so frazzled painting this i had to paint my name 3 times as my hands were shaking. 

Sigh. 


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